Thoughts on my life today.

I have decided that dreaming and having your dreams come true are very different.  I am not talking about a fairytale, movie script, or novel.  They don't really tell you about dreams.  They only focus on getting to the beginning.  Happily ever after starts when the dream is realized.  It makes sense, in a strange fairytale kind of way.  There are many trials to reach your dreams, and these are the stories many focus on.  In reality the story would probably never end if they also focused on the fulfillment of those dreams.  

What do I mean?

When you dream there are endless possibilities with no actual pressure.  You can imagine yourself at your best with no doubts.  You see a picture in your mind and it is surmountable because it is 2-dimensional.  You can see the entire picture.  There is a beginning and an end.  In dreams you feel only excitement and motivation.

Then suddenly your dreams come true, the doubts come in and it would seem that the beautiful picture you had in your mind is now real.  Maybe your picture was of Mount Everest.  Now that your dream is actually before you, you realize that you cannot actually see the entire mountain.  It is to big.  All you see is what is in front of your face; ravines, snow and ice covered inclines, blizzards, deadly avalanches.  It also feels different.  There is the blinding brightness reflecting off of miles of snow, you cannot breathe because the air is so thin, your extremities slowly freeze, and extreme pain from pushing your body to a place you never meant it to go is in every movement, every thought.  

To live your dream is to take the risk that your dream may be the force that will ultimately break you.

To live your dream is to take the greatest risk of your life.

To live your dream is to move past the fairytale and into the unending reality that we are made of our dreams...because they have no real end, no real beginning.  They are a cycle resulting from our successes, failures, and the progression of time and courage.

So, when you have climbed your Mount Everest, what is the result?

When you get to the pinnacle, before you is a much grander sight than any imagination or picture could capture.  

You are at a new point, as a new person, seeing with new eyes.

You see that the original picture was a vastly inadequate representation of the majesty before you.  The fulfillment of your dream has superseded any "grand imaginings" you may have previously entertained.  They are no longer enough.  With each fulfillment you change, and understand your ability to reach higher, risk bigger, and be better. 

The monumental struggle of dreams changes the person, and the result of each endeavor, pass or fail, always exceeds the dream.

The result of this continuous cycle?

A new person, with new dreams, and the courage to face the next picture.