Ode to the average.

We aren't competitive at all at university are we....or sarcastic? Yes, I am being sarcastic. I studied super hard for the most intimidating of tests and got a B...which in any other circumstance would be fantastic, wonderful and a lot of other descriptive words that show how awesome it is and yet, I'm sitting here trying to not be disappointed in myself. I shouldn't be bothered that the class average was 2% above my score, that 17 people in my class scored between 95-100% and that while I am definitely on the high end of things and should be proud, I am always just under average no matter how high that average is. That is a really crappy feeling. So that is what I'm trying to convince myself of, it is supposed to be about individual accomplishment, not comparison to the crowds. So I should be feeling pretty dang good. Now if only my professors and peers felt that way. :(