The Floating Leaf

As I was walking to class today I was so happy to see the beautiful leaves falling from the trees. Then I noticed that one small, yellow leaf was suspended midair and was just spinning in the breeze. The piece of random web that this leaf had gotten stuck on was invisible but from a certain angle and so this leaf seemed to be stuck midair trying to follow the laws of gravity but unable to do so. That's kind of how I have felt lately and because of that I realize that there are some things that I need to change. I have been so serious and so driven that I have not taken the time to find any joy in my life right now. I'm not happy and it's my own fault. So I've decided to change some things and do away with others...at least for a little while. :) I've decided that I need to not be so serious and so stressed out. I think when I walked into my midterm and forgot everything because I was so stressed is a sign that I need to chill out a bit. By chilling out I mean that I'm going to take any unnecessary stressors from my life for a little while. I'm going to try to stop eating food that I'm allergic to and make me feel like crap, like chocolate, wheat and milk. I'm not going to date for a little while. I've been to stressed about this and it is absolutely ridiculous to be honest. I just need to have fun for a little while with nothing serious in any shape or form. I also am going to try to not do homework after 5pm unless absolutely necessary. I'm also going to make time to exercise more because it makes me feel good. Making time for this is the problem that I'm going to fix. I need to start going to the temple again at least every other week. The most important though is that I need to stop being so serious and negative by learning more about why God loves me and why that should entice me to accept and love myself. Does this all seem pretty overwhelming? Yes but I need to make some changes and this will help. So there you go.